I have a confession to make...
Being a stay-at-home mom is sooo much harder than I thought it was going to be. When we had Landon(18 months ago..AAAAAAH!), my plan was to be with him as much as I could by not putting him into day care and start doing my photography business full time. Well by the time I got accustomed to having a 6 year old and a newborn...BAM! Our lives were turned upside down when I got a little positive on a pregnancy test when Landon was just 3 months old. And I still remember Nicole's reaction when I walked out of the bathroom like it was yesterday...she was laughing so hard she couldn't breath. Me? I was about to pass out. And poor Ryan...I called him at work and told him :)
Fast foward about a year...
Yay! Baby Calvin is here! Well...that was almost 5 months ago. I have an 18 month old AND a 5 month AND a 7 year old. Someone seriously needs to pray for me because sometimes I feel like I'm going to lose it!
But then again...how many women wanting to stay at home with their children actually have that opportunity? How many get to play with their babies all day long and never have to leave them with anyone? So every time I have thoughts of going back to work, I think to myself...1. I have an incredible bond with my boys that I know I wouldn't have if I were working. 2. I am able to exclusively breastfeed the baby 3. I can raise my kids and teach them
And luckily I have an amazing husband who supports me, appreciates me, and will take the babies off of my hands as soon as he gets home from a long day at work.
And not to mention all of our friends and family that always offer to hold a baby or chase a middle child whenever they are around.
(Hugs to all of you who always offer to help..you know who you are!) Without all of you...I would probably be medicated right now! :)
I guess the point to all of this...is this... I might be complaining about how Landon keeps climbing on top of the table(over and over...and over) or I might cry with these babies when they're both screaming at the same time. But I know that 5...10...15 years from now, I'm going to be really sad that these days are gone and that they went by so fast. I know that there is light at the end of this tunnel, but I'm not in such a hurry to get there...just yet.
I'm a mom and a wife who loves to play with a camera...how can life be any better?